Poem for Orly turning twenty-five


Tell me, what
a poem does you?
Perhaps, in lieu of dozens
of white blooms wrapped in leaves
to hold in the hammock of your arm,
or colored stones for luck,
to tame the demons, you say.
Maybe, a jarful of the Virgin's
tears believed to have welled
in a subterranean womb of Mactan,
sap extracted from wizened wood
to lave the thirsts of skin.
But, would any of them heal
the wounds that bound us
like memory to a dulled mind:
your mother's body found lifeless
afloat as kelp on a beach's shoal;
your older brother, Butch, he
with a body of bloodstreams
flooded with sugar, racked his brain,
and one Christmas eve, turned
loose and turbid? And, how
would they temper rage, guilt,
anguish, or mend a fractured human
craving, like an unfinished poem?

The answers you well know.
but curdled on your tongue's tip
silence, like a sweet rotten tooth
you bury into a heap of ashes,
an offering to the earth-
kissing lizards.

But, what have I
to gift you with?
Nothing, but this, nothing
worthy to last a lifetime,
to allay the pains of loving:

Let me be the lonely prayer
to crack like a ray of lightning
into the dark of your room
as you pull knees to your chest
heaving with sobs, pelting curses,
when thrust into your mouth
a bubonic erection.
Let me be a departed mother's
flurries of petal-winged touch
on scabrous skin of grief --
yours upon the warmth cleaved
to her breasts.
Let me be the poem, enwombed
deep in the hollows of my soul,
to which I shall give birth,
to which you shall breathe life.


Ronald P. Villavelez
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